Wednesday, June 25, 2014

and it feels so good

I ended up giving the Its-Not-You-Its-Me speech:

Dear You

Really.  It's not you, it's me.  You seemed like a good mate in the beginning, looked pretty good on paper anyway.  And I won't say we didn't have any fun together.  But actually, I saw signs early on that this wasn't going to work out.  We just didn't seem to be on the same wavelength most of the time, and I grew tired of waiting for you.  It probably shouldn't have even lasted as long as it did, others told me I should probably get out sooner.  But I felt we deserved more time to see where this would go.

To be honest, my eyes started roaming several months ago when I felt our connection slipping.  I started talking to other people, just talking.  I just had to think about my future, and more and more, it just didn't seem like you would be a part of it.  Really, it's not you, it's me.  I think, among other things, you're just too young for me. 

I do want to thank you, however.  My time spent with you really helped me to realize what I truly wanted.  You introduced me to new things and also reawakened parts of me that had been dormant for quite some time.  I admit now that the more I was with you, the more I thought about my ex.  About how I made a mistake in tryiing to put the ex behind me forever.  

I was thinking about my ex so much, I ended up talking to someone to investigate a reconciliation.  I saw that my separation had not caused as big of a division as I'd thought.  In fact, my on-the-side activities served to foster a timely reunion.

I'm getting back with my ex.  I hope you can be happy for me.  *fake tears*


Yeah, I broke up with the teacher licensing program.   I think they were trying to be all things to all people, but in the end, it's really a better program for undergrads who THINK they MIGHT want to be teachers.   I found the courses very rudimentary and tedious.

Some of my classmates dropped after the first semester.  They were similar to me in that they were older and already had teaching experience, just wanted to get licensed.  I decided to give the program one more make-or-break semester.


I started looking into other programs about a month into last semester - there are many ways to get licensed.  I'd almost settled on one program, but I found my thoughts straying back to being an engineer.

So I got with a program advisor at the university to discuss an engineering masters program, did the application, and got approved.  Start in the fall.

Alice Abby came to a fork in the road. 'Which road do I take?' she asked.
'Where do you want to go?'...

Back to Nerdland!

p.s.  With this degree, I can also be a teacher - wheee!



Anonymous said...

An engineering masters program... should be a piece of cake. For YOU. I only WISH I was nerdy enough to take such classes.
Anyway, I'm thrilled for you! Sounds like it'll provide the challenge you need with the end result you're looking for - the ability to teach. Will you be done in a few years?

Riot Kitty said...

Congrats! It takes guts to change course. Good on you.

Rock Chef said...

Excellent - do what you love!
It sounds like the old course was one of those "ticking the boxes" exercises - hate them....

Abby said...

It felt good to give myself "permission" to leave the teacher program and get back to my roots. It should take 2 years and include time for tuting.

Abby said...

It got to where I didn't even like the building where those teacher classes were. Time to jump that ship!

Abby said...

"Ticking the boxes" - perfect description. I'm just not a ticking the boxes kind of girl, especially if it's for two and a half years.

agg79 said...

Woah! It really takes some serious stones to go for the Master's degree. And in Engineering, no less! Bravo. I applaud anyone who has the drive and stamina and patience to jump back into the scholastic pool to go for the next rung on the degree ladder. I eventually went back to get an MBA and it really helped to jump start my career in a totally different direction. Sometimes it takes a leap of faith when it comes to taking the next step. Normally, I would wish you luck but I feel confident that you will kick some academic butt and wind up at the top of the class. 2 & 1/2 years ain't that long. I expect to see you in the cap and gown sporting that new Master's hood before too long. Bonne Chance!

Abby said...

Thanks Agg! Well I've had plenty of time to rest up. And last year really helped push me into the pool!

terri said...

I'm impressed. I remember when you were in the life coach phase of figuring out where your life should go. Now you've got some return-to-schooling under your belt and some clear next steps! I have no doubt you'll have great success - in school and beyond!

Abby said...

My previous life kept popping up in my lesson plans and writing assignments for teacher school. Finally, I realized what I should really be doing!